As we all know what is freedom. The freedom is given to us whether we want to live our life happy, miserably, ego or humble. Everyone's freedom is different. I think I love freedom more than any of my friends because i still haven't commit in any relationship yet, the love spell is very heavy. But time & tide wait for no man, im not young anymore. I have to make a decision because the dateline is closer than i think. That's y the priest said i need direction & vision. This word has been rolling in my mind for 4 months. He really like a prophet. He said a word is deep enough for me to find out what is the meaning behind. We have the freedom to choose about our life but we have to make a decision at the 1st step.
The men with status keeps delivering the message money is the freedom so that they can stay different level from the poor. The world keeps telling u having a lot of cash is a freedom for you to have many luxurious goods. The entertainment world keeps telling u having a lot of money is a fame & u will have a lot of pretty girls around u. Some may say this is a must when you're rich. some may say no. I don't think u are free when u re doing things accordingly to the world, u are just like under the spell or programmed. Some poor peoples may say charity leave it to the rich peoples to do. I wonder where is the freedom??? actually whoever rich or poor can do the charity because charity start at home & it dont cost a cent but afford will be needed in deep just like what mother Teresa did.
Some peoples say when u are drunk u will have the inspiration to write a better song or a better blog, I used to agree it but when I think over & over again. We should have the freedom to write a good thing anytime or anywhere, we cannot practice it this way it is so wrong. They said when u are drunk u can sing better but the truth is always out of tune terribly due to cant hear our own voice clearly. The talent is given in our brain is not in the drugs or drinks. Drinks is just helping me to collapse earlier like what i always did.. Or help me to get more fine tickets from the police checking.
Lately I have lost a lot of freedom. I used to go to the most expensive hairdresser but i was forced to down grade. When I gave this fresh hairdresser to cut my hair then i realized she wasn't that experienced. But if i don't give chance for her to practice how she gonna improve??? How she gonna earn some money from the customers? I really feel bad sometimes for not giving chances for the new peoples.
Some peoples may say drinking everyday is a freedom & that's life, for sure i agree it as well cos i like to drink too. But when u cant live without it u are under a spell as well, the freedom is gone. But i was being force to drink less because god has gave me a special spell as well... Don't know I should thanks god or blame god hahaha..
I know i have been abused my freedom all the while because my freedom only god can control it. I don't know why god has to do this to me. My freedom is being locked now. Last time i wondered why the peoples have to eat cheap meal when there is better meal to eat, now i understand is not everyone got the strong financial. I think i have to learn many things from the basic before i become a very wise man because there is no shortcut in life except i'm born with a golden key in my mouth. My uncle told me is not everyone understand about the word "poor", this is so deep. U have to experience it & feel it then u will know what is poor. Very blessed i was not born in Africa.
Eventually this kind of life is very very suffer for me, i don't know why i have to go thru this kind of special training. Some say if u no debt u are very good in managing your financial. In my dictionary teaching was if u never get into debt u wont have the ideas of how to make more moneys. I don't know this kind of lifestyle will last until when. My quote nowadays is: wont said tired until i overcame. What i need now is chances. Everytime i pray to god i will say "I do" i willing to do & contribute more. This is a fight. I may not win with my own power. God please help me with it. I have to go thru this difficult way until i can touch his heart.